POST - OP

Well I have been home from the hospital for one week and am starting to move around pretty good. I gained 7.5 pounds of fluid in the hospital and was motified when I saw that on the scale when I got home. I was up to 250 pounds. I have lost most of what I gained and am back to my pre-op weight now. The next 6 weeks I won't be able to do much exercise so we will see what happens in that department.

PRE-SURGURY

Well here we are the day before the day before my surgury. I am scared shitless to go under the knife but I am trying to keep a brave front for everyone else. Tomorrow is the day to get everything finalized before I head to the hospital. I am scared that something will happen because of my weight and that Michael would be left alone. I want and need to be here for him. I am hoping to lose a bit of weight in the hospital and get off the junk food. I would love to focus on healthy foods like fruits and veggies once I get home. I guess a most of it depends on Michael after all he is the one preparing and buying groceries for the next month or so. Here's to a great month and year ahead.

Well mom was buried this afternoon and I am determined to get healthy for her. I watched her suffer in her final days and am determined to never go through what she did. I couldn't bear to make Michael watch me go through what I did watching my mom. I need to get healthy for all of us - me, Michael AND my mom.

Gonna start getting my ass in gear right now. Can't put this off any longer. I just wish that Michael would stop buying shit and bringing it home. It makes things so hard when I try so hard yet I don't have the willpower to say no to the temptations that he brings into the house.

Gonna try the hardest I can and try to stay away from his junk food.

It is February 20th and I haven't accomplished a damn thing this year in the weight loss department. The past few weeks have been horrible. Haven't tracked a thing and not much exercise except walking to and from the bus for work and the hospital. Mom's been in the hospital with complications from the cancer. They transfered her to pallative care a few days ago. I really have to get my ass in gear and get this weight off. Surgury is coming up in the next few months hopefully plus I wanna lose weight to be healthier so I don't end up like my mom. I wanna be healthy and live a long long life.

So tomorrow is my first weigh in of the new year. I was hoping for a great number but it isn't going to be. At least it will be a loss and that is in the right direction. I have been sick for the past 6 days and that has made it very difficult to track and to eat properly. At least this morning I am feeling somewhat better and am hoping to stay at work for the whole day and to eat smart all day. Meals are all planned out for the day:
B bacon, eggs, cheese, bagel, milk
L yogurt, banana, pudding
D rice, mushrooms, pork chop
S applesauce
So far it is 33 of my 36 daily allowable points plus I still have a few weeklies left also.

Here's to tomorrow morning and a good weigh in.

Happy New Year

So today is January 1, 2011. I have my goals all in place for this year. I have three challenges that I have set for myself. The first one is a one month challenge to lose 8 pounds and do 1000 minutes of exercise by the end of January. My second goal is a 25 week challenge to lose 30 pounds and do 10,000 minutes of exercise before June 25th. My third goal is my yearly goal of losing 60 pounds and doing 20,000 minutes of exercise before the new year of 2012.

I know these are very hefty goals and I haven't done so well in the past when it comes to weight loss goals. This year is going to be different. This year I am married so I am not just doing this for me but for both of us. I am having surgury later this year which will definitely put a damper on things since I can't exercise for at least 6 weeks. I am still planning on making these goals happen.

I am going to keep a journal every day and when I get discouraged I am going to pull it out and see what I have accomplished so far and hopefully that will keep me motivated to keep doing well. I am also going to track on paper everything that I eat so I can glance back at it at any time and see any problem areas or triggers for me.

Here is to a great 2011 for me and Michael. May it be the best and healthiest one yet for us. May he be the inspiration that I need to succeed. I am doing this for us. I love you Michael.

Happy Birthday to me

Well today is my 40th birthday and I am feeling pretty good about the next year. My goal in December was to lose 5 pounds. Although I had a gain this week of three pounds, I did manage to lose 5.4 for the month which I am happy about. I haven't decided yet on a goal for January but it will be at least the same maybe more.