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It is the beginning of December 2010. I have been married to Michael for 3 wonderful months. We have returned from our honeymoon in Branson and I have gained a few pounds. It is time to really get serious about things. I am going in for a hysterectomy in the next few months and need and want to be healthier before I have to go in. I want less chance of complications during the surgury. I am starting first thing in the morning with tracking my points with weight watchers again and my first goal is to hit under 200 pounds.

A few days ago Michael told me that he has given up on me ever losing the weight. That hurt me more than anything else that he has ever said to me. I am going to do this to make me healthier and also to prove him wrong. The look on his face when he said that to me broke my heart. I am not even gonna mention this to him until I start to see some results. Then I will tell him I rejoined again and hopefully I will see a look of "proud" on his face again. It has been a long time since I have seen that look.

So I am heading over now to the weight watchers website to resign up. I am looking forward to the upcoming changes on December 6th though.

Michael I am doing this for you - for US.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Well mom was buried this afternoon and I am determined to get healthy for her. I watched her suffer in her final days and am determined to never go through what she did. I couldn't bear to make Michael watch me go through what I did watching my mom. I need to get healthy for all of us - me, Michael AND my mom.

Gonna start getting my ass in gear right now. Can't put this off any longer. I just wish that Michael would stop buying shit and bringing it home. It makes things so hard when I try so hard yet I don't have the willpower to say no to the temptations that he brings into the house.

Gonna try the hardest I can and try to stay away from his junk food.
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